Repetitive/Invasive 24.10.013

I am a collective of cells and flesh.

I am wired through with impulses Electric;
the cells
and the flesh
speak with one another

(across distances Infinite
and intraverseable--
yet I call This my thumb,
and This: my phallus;
and This is my arm
and This is my Heart--
This is my arm
This is my Heart--
and This is all a great lie)

by shooting
jolts of charged ions down paths
encased in a myelin sheathing;

but in my dystrophy I wonder:

am I cells and flesh;

am I blood and bone;

am I tissue and organ and muscle and ligament;

am I dead proteins

(arranged in such a manner
as to attract You,
the subjective Object of my momentary
Desire--across the way, moving towards me
amidst the rock-show music,
with mote-like notes falling on our ears,
and our faces

[turned Outwards towards one another, in
a Peacock-like display
of all our wildest fantasies
and most wily-and-cherished dreamsequences
involving long-lost love
found again
in the most Primal of mind-melding
places]);

spurting forth from follicles wedged

between skin cells;

am I a large nose;

am I rotting teeth;

am I uncircumcised penis;
scars white and purple;

freckles, and sun spots;

hypovolemia;

virus (viruses) that will never leave
my Body Immaculate--

or am I, perhaps, the interminable chatter

that occupies the indeterminately

large-or-small

space between

two Ears

two Eyes

Mouth and Basil Ganglia

Larynx and Medulla Oblongata
sinus passages

(labyrinth of bacteria and fluids and so many
green-tinged
childhood illnesses)

and long-since-fused fontanel?

What is the Mind?

What are my thoughts, and how
do they translate themselves
(so invisibly, so seamlessly)

into actuality; into realness; into a world

which seems to be so ruthlessly governed by a Categorical Imperative
and a Religious conviction
Hell-bent on homo-genization

(yet unaccepting of homo-sexualization
and everything that it entails

[love; a species being; a freeing
from the confines
of Space, and of
Time; a broadening of
our Human Minds 

{but, again: WHAT IS THE MIND?!}

and an acquisition of the knowledge of All
that is entailed by the symbolic term
of "selflessness"--
and a freeing from the confines
of Social Acceptance and normalcy;
individualism as a sect of the
capital-C
Community]) ;

fought and rallied against by Science

(another Great Evil if left unchecked, if
allowed to run rampant
in its capital-R
Righteousness, in its
Revelry in the falsehood that is the Religious Right

[which, by antithesis,
makes its own statements
no less Real
or informed by Insight]) ?

How do my thoughts affect
the transient world;
how do my thoughts connect
to the basal
mud-and-lightning
that is my ephemeral Body?

What am I?

How can I be?

What use is there in Naming?

How do the stars shine;
what semblance of realism is there in my momentary
(daily)
breathing--

and what does the beating of my Heart mean?