Surskittles
Cocksucken
Combustanut
Nicki poetry (poke it out, poke it out)
Cardi
Beyoncés Coachella performance
Bad Bhabie
Animal Collective
Phillip Glass
LCD Soundsystem— American Dream
Bright Eyes— Lime Tree
All of Cassadaga
Neko Case— Dirty Knife; City Swans
Phosphorescent— Endless pt. 1; Endless pt. 2
Sleater-Kinney— Can I Go On
Beets and potatoes
No tomatoes
No red meat
Mr. Pollo
Bird tea
Chimken
Dudley
Monstera (Deliciosa)
Echeveria
Jade
Weed
Long-stemmed pipe
Magnifier
Magnifying glass-lit weed
Big jars of water (two hands)
Salads: greens, sunflower seeds (pistachios?), beets, kalamata olives, avocado
Sables
Macarons
Mini banana bread
Eggs left out for too long
Clogged sink
Dishes washed by hand
Cat box in the pantry
Lil Peanut
Haribo— star mix, cherries, happy cola, sometimes twin snakes
Cinnamon Toast Crunch, with a miso soup spoon
“Gare-“dettos
Cheetos Paws
A crönch-chip
Kettle cooked potato
Coconut Water
Golden kiwis
Concord grapes from the
Logan Square Farmer’s Market
Lula Café
Raclette (too-messy fried egg)
Lox’d bagel
Community Days, ambling about Logan Square
Holding your hand on Milwaukee, by the Taco Bell that serves liquor
Hairy Who
The Chris Debacle, a month of silence to follow
“Oh shit, OH shit!”
Horner Park after The Infinite Wrench, June 30th, the last day of Pride
“You’re getting my load tonight”
New Year’s Eve, spent in your bed
Massaging you until you fell asleep, precious fucking angel— I had to wake you up so you could lock the door behind me
“OKAY, MAAAARY”
*tongue pop*
“HAH! HAH!” in my face, unfair, you tease
Roping together the underside of your broken couch
Soldering your broken speakers back together
Exquisite corpses
Photographs of my boulder opals, fire agate
We never photographed my irises
Your black (GREEN) armchair
“I love you, too”
Mario Kart (your fucking rocket starts)
Jeni’s Ice Cream
Buddy Wakefield, 5/5ths, Mykele Deville
RuPaul’s Drag Race (AllStars 3)
“C’mon, trees! C’mon, nature!”
“Walking kids in nature”
Walks in nature, Belmont riverwalk
Trying to catch the same Squirtle
The fire station
The fire station mural (so homoerotic)
Cum in my eye, that first day, after your trip to the post office
Lighting my chillum with a match
“Wait for the sulfur to burn off”
You kept and remembered our Grindr messages
“M”
5’5”
125 lbs
Gram
Grandfather; name change; honoring his legacy
The silver roof
Naked sunbathing I never partook in
Jockstrap reveal, walking up the stairs
Videos for your boyfriend
Primary sexual partners
Halting speech, strained, anguish
“Minty man”
Filthy Friends— “Second Life,” “Mother”
Brand’s Park
Francisco
Kuma’s Corner
“THAT GAHDDAMN BITCH COLLEEN”
Permanent retainer
Perfect teeth
Dimples
Adjusting your glasses with one finger
Looking up and to the right (to remember, to avoid, to escape, to lie?)
The cast copy of your grandmother’s ring, forever on your pointer finger
Conversations about the bullshit at work
Hugs
Kisses (I’m so sorry for that time you felt pressured)
Shuddering, shaking legs
Licking it up
“Pow pow powww”
